Thursday, December 15, 2011

My Best List - 2011 Edition

Wow, the year is almost over!  Can't believe how quickly 2011 flew by.  Thought I'd change it up and do something light-hearted for the end of the year.  My Best List of 2011 is comprised of a bunch of pop culture randomness.  Hope you enjoy!  Note: this is purely subjective :)


Best Album
1. 21 - Adele
2. Chris Brown - F.A.M.E.
3. Late Nights & Early Mornings - Marsha Ambrosius
4. Hello Fear - Kirk Franklin
5. Pieces of Me - Ledisi

Honorable Mention: Teenage Dream - Katy Perry, Born this Way - Lady Gaga, Wale - Ambition

Best Pop Song
1. Rolling in the Deep - Adele
2. Firework - Katy Perry
3. Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO
4. Someone Like You - Adele
5. Born this Way - Lady Gaga

Best R&B Song
1. Far Away - Marsha Ambrosius
2. Motivation - Kelly Rowland ft. Drake
3. She Ain't You - Chris Brown
4. Pieces of Me - Ledisi
5. Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson

Best Hip Hop Song
1. How to Love - Lil Wayne
2. Super Bass - Nicki Minaj
3. I'm On One - DJ Khaled ft. Drake
4. Look At Me Now - Chris Brown 
5. Marvin & Chardonnay - Big Sean ft. Kanye West & Roscoe Dash

Best Artist
1. Adele
2. Katy Perry
3. Chris Brown
4. Lady Gaga
5. Bruno Mars

Best Movie
1. Bridesmaids
2. Rise of the Planet of the Apes
3. Captain America: The First Avenger
4. The Adjustment Bureau
5. Fast Five

Best Reality Series
1. Dancing with the Stars (ABC)
2. Jersey Shore (MTV)
3. Chopped (Food Network)
4. Ridiculousness (MTV)
5. Keeping Up With the Kardashians franchise (E!)

Best TV Series
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. Private Practice
3. Modern Family
4. 90210
5. Law & Order: Special Victims Unit

Top Trends in Technology
1. Angry Birds Game
2. Increasing popularity of Web Series
3. Twitter
4. Ipad & Iphone
5. Frictionless sharing (Music, News articles viewable through Social media sites)

Best Social Networking Sites
1. Twitter
2. LinkedIn
3. Facebook
4. Tumblr
5. Google +


Tuesday, September 27, 2011

A Wonderful Change Has Come Over Me

Amazing how the course you see for yourself is never in God's plan.  We all are pawns in the game of life, given the free will to make decisions.  Sometimes those decisions lead to happiness, other times we experience sadness.  Ultimately, the decisions we make shape the people we become.  The last two years have been a series of life lessons for me.  I know if I didn't have the love and support of my family or my spirituality, I would probably be on a path to self-destruction.  The person I was even 5 years ago is completely different from the person I am today.  To be honest, the person I was in June is not the same person I am today.  The hardship I've gone through personally and professionally opened my eyes to how cold the world can really be.  My family and friends have always been in my corner - providing words of encouragement and reminding me that I am a child of God so nothing can keep me down.  That same hardship that opened my eyes to the negativity of the world opened my eyes to the glory and favor of God.  Any situation I've dealt with - positive or negative - was meant for my good.  It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel in the midst of the storm.  For a while, my heart was hardened and I slowly lost sight of who I am.  Each situation, each failure dug me deeper into a hole that I wasn't able to dig out of.  I hit rock bottom a couple times but continued to wear a smile and be there for others as if nothing had gone wrong in my world.  I held so much inside and tried to deal with things on my own.  Many decisions I made were in hopes that something or someone was the solution to my problems.  In the midst of the turmoil, I continued to pray and ask God to order my steps.  I don't doubt that He was walking with me but I chose to veer off course.

All of the disappointment, pain, and hurt led to my breakthrough.  A few weeks ago I was watching an episode of Sunday Best I recorded.  It was the show prior to the finale.  The 2 finalists didn't move me with their first selection.  The second song choices for both ladies brought me to tears.  Andrea Helms belted out "Change" and Amber Bullock so beautifully sang "For Every Mountain".  As the Spirit moved through them, it moved through me as well.  I began to think about the trials and tribulations of the last couple years and realized I was tired of hurting.  I was tired of being upset.  I was tired of harboring feelings of resentment, contempt, and vengeance.  I was tired of making irrational decisions and not living my life for me.  At that point I had an emotional breakdown and asked the Lord to come into my heart and remove all of the negativity.  At that moment, I forgave myself and everyone who had ever wronged me.  I was changed for the better.  I was able to let go and let God have His way.  I've been a more positive person since that day and have actually mended some broken relationships.  I still have some work to do but as they say, "Rome wasn't built in a day".  Everything in its own time.  All of this has brought me closer to God, allowing me to be a positive influence on others as I've always wanted to be.  Every struggle is a life lesson.  If you don't learn from it then you continue to drown in a sea of abyss.  Personal choices do affect your life, and how they affect your life is up to you.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Something New

The last time I was in a committed relationship was 2002. Dated my high school sweetheart off and on for 3 yrs up until we broke up at the end of my Junior year. I always get the question, "Why are you single?" A woman with my standards stays single - I can find something wrong with anyone, lol. I've dated many men since that time but nothing materializes into a relationship. Either I'm not fully in it, or we just don't click. Throughout my "drought", there have probably been 3 guys I was truly into - they just happened to be more into other women and/or liars. Needless to say, the trust factor for me with men has slowly deteriorated over the years. My most recent incident has left some pretty deep scars. Invested a year and a half in this man and it all came crashing down on me a few months ago. What's done in the dark does always come to the light. Skeletons never stay hidden. Regardless, I realized I dodged a bullet.

After the heartbreak I've been through over the last 4-5 yrs, I decided I was ready for something new. After my most recent situation, the plan was to be solo for a while - heal and try to find myself again. Interestingly enough, I happened to meet someone who was going through their own heartbreak. I'd already somewhat dealt with mine and things were fresh for my new friend. I'd like to think that I helped ease the pain by speaking from my own experience. We haven't known each other for very long and I'm not one to plunge into things so quickly but I have a good feeling about this. If something feels right, why take my time just because it's what I've always done? If someone is that into me and knows they want a relationship, and I feel the same way, why wait? My new friend is amazing and makes me incredibly happy. I can't remember the last time I was this happy with anyone. Don't know how it happened and how the feelings grew so strong so quickly but I'm not going to fight it. The situation is new for me on so many levels but I'm liking this new place I'm in.